Because a Friendship that clicks well with each and everyone I love in gradual, it is a and the most beautiful I could ever asked for. Even if the Friendship is less than a year old

















































































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I met the girl above, andrea AKA Qiqi as early as 9am for our $12/hour work that saturday. it was OK lah. home and dressing up again, would already be 6pm, rushed and met the guys around 7pm for our dinner at Jolly Frog. A pretty nice resturant though.... :>)

Afterwhich we were really kinda wonder where the hell should we be hanging out and we.... ended at powerhouse(again) for the XXXXX times, cuz my Friend there LOVE powerhouseeeeeee.

yadayada, alcohols and music, I probably wasnt in the really mooooood to get very "high" and kaopehzzzz. Flaming thing didnt kill me, AT ALL. :D haha.

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Had Fun(S)

love
they
all
maxico.

hopefully the Friendship can always be seen running... and running.

My parents love to me is unconditioned.

Just like how mine it is to theirs. maybe a little lesser than theirs, but I am improving. day by day, I am improving. Improving to be their better girl, improving to shower them with more love. Improving... to hopefully give them a better life.

I dont know how contented are them with each other, or maybe their lives now, or maybe their financial not-s related, their businesses, their every single thing. but I hope my brother and I, could be their greatest gift. we may not be gifted in any ways, professional in any ways, genius in any ways, I know still, we are their most precious and probably still will be their proud-est achievements. haix, I love them, really, unconditionally, I really fucking do.

(I know I am always emotional *&^%$#@!)

Probably because Jerrome is not with me tonight, tomorrow's and the day after and after. His family went over malaysia to witness (again) her cousin's marriage.. To think of it, it is really a pretty short thing. Before it came by, I was thinking, "aye damn it, few days only what, furthermore it is over the weekends" but when it really came hitting, I just fucking think that few days IS tolerable, NOT.
:(

I cant forcast myself seeing him over tekong, shipping in to that ulu island. That would probably be the MOST torturous periods, Ever:( *uPseTs*

Miss you baby,

come back soon and safely please.

xoxo.

I feel that my Life is in a mess. It seems that many things havent been done. I cant seems to bring my Life back onto track. Everything to me seems so bleak. I can't forecast where am heading to. I need a Life. a Life which I was quite positive about. a Life which I never felt so isolated. a Life which I wanted, a Life which I pictured.

But where'd all these "Life" gone to? or rather where'd I lost it all to? Sometimes it just get too mundane, too drained, too lazy, to unmotivated, to less bothered. I hate to feel lazy, How can I always not get drained by the laziness and how do we often feel LESS lazy? Back then, (I dont remember how back was then) I could kill the laziness, I see it coming I screwed it right before it hit me hard. Back then (again) I could conquered it. Without fail, I always do.

So what had happened to me, or rather my "ability" to conquer the laziness and all the motivating Lifes, Lives? I shouldn't be feeling Life's a bitch cuz I dont believe it. Life to me is beautiful. But..... sometimes you just have to experience it and then.. conclude that Life sucks. Vice versa, to taste the sweetness of Life before you conclude again that Life IS indeed beautiful.

Many factors, financially, personally, work, studies, family, relationships and friends. Every single mentioned bring me back to Life. And if one happened to occur or perform bad, that's it. My Life will be in a messed up situation and again, I have to get it back on track so as to move towards My Life.

Sometimes I wonder why am I so easily fucked by things around me. How can I feel less easily interrupted and just move on with what I'm doing and just fuck them all it. Sometimes I could see me being strong enough to withstand it all but sometimes again, I feel all so shitty, being conquered by them again and again.

I always believe in the power of mind. My mind say YES means YES. I always believe the subconsiousness of our ability to outcast our external. but how do we apply it back ON REALITY? you read it and you find it easy. but when you try applying it, there it goes again, fucking your life. Difficult.

But right now I am really going to get my Life back on MY track. I should be doing it alone, with the ability of my subconsiousness and the power of MY MIND. Do you think I can? Yes I believe I should be able.

5 Years 8 Months *

Crazy shit indeed, yes, we've come THIS far.


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Talking about 10.10.10 last week, it was an evening witnessing the young couple. Honestly to me, going into a marriage is a very scary thing. Cuz you never know how long would the love for both lasts. A marriage is indeed a night only which is supposed to last a life time but how often are beautiful marriage lasting a longer time?... After being married for a decade or so, being with each other would become a routine. and thats not what I ever want. I dont want a beautiful Love to become a routine.

*If knowing that he dont love you like you thought he is, and if knowing that you will be the one who might have to put in the most efforts to make it worked, would you still, would you still marry him?*









*happily marriage to you bothxz.*

Nevertheless, before things slipped my mind, today is 10.10.10` which maybe we can witness alot of people getting married and yadayada. Not surprisingly, I've 1 to attend this evening.

Yestaday was at pasir ris BBQ to celebrate my babe 19th!! Young and furious indeeddddd. great companion, alcohol, music like powerhouse, no ambience though, and meeting new people. a simple blast indeed. love max. <3*


IF YOU KNOW ME YOU WILL KNOW THAT I ALWAYS LOVE FRIENDSHIPS.

Very true that with Twitter on board, blogger seems so troublesome.

1st october - 3rd october 2010 Star Virgo `

it was a virgin JRHP trip~

a trip that was soley belonged to us, a trip which we spent the period entirely just with the both of us, a trip which requires us to depend on each other, a trip which... was truely a new experience.






































































































so how can i draft in brief what happened or how the trip went by? hmm.. it was... an awesome one, for if i can get a better word, I would. but so far, AWESOME is the one.

on board itself, to me is amazing to do so many things on the huge thing. I wonder how can technology get this advance?! tsk. anyway we lounged, we beer-ed, we martini, tequila pop, we buffet, we chinese dishes, we ice cream, we swam, we magic show, we drama shows, we snacked, we just did alot together.

And he said. "Eh you've diary anot, lets write in detailed for the entire trip, together"

And he drew this smiley face with curry on the plate cuz he made me angry* I dont want to smile upon seeing that cuz i am STILL ANGRY ROARS!!


ALL or nothing, you rocked my world, babyxz.

I love you, my man. <3

Last saturday.... (which I cant exactly draw up the exact date right now with my "still recovering from sea-shore" brainee,) went my favourite ever ever ever, powerhouse with Crystal, Lynnette( quite rare thing ) and some guys. I dont know why but i never get sick of powerhouse. Hahahha.














It was okay, that night could be longerrrrrrr.

(:

I want more trance and tecktonick and powerhouse!!!